say ?

i have no place to talk satisfied. to tell all what I've done or all that
I was feeling. don't know and surely don't know what have to do soon. maybe all people think that they really know about my happiness outside. feel really childish or really sad. they never try to look at stare int my eyes . if they do, they will know that in fact I'm really feel lonely, feel so down or maybe same unhappy feeling. they don't know that I'm absolutely confused at all. at all things that always going on my day second by second. please don't keep smiling and say sorry to me. try to cheer me up, you must know what the fact and the fake of me and THE REAL of myself is.